Your unemployed bestie on a Tuesday

Life took a drastic change for me almost two months ago.

I was fired from my job. If you didn’t know, I’m a social worker and just started this job in February. I got laid off a week before my birthday, so I booked an impromptu trip to the Dominican Republic.

Naturally I was devastated by the news. It came as a shock. I’ve never been fired from any job because I work well helping all my clients. There were no warnings, no write ups, just straight up fired.

I cried on the floor for about 10 minutes. Terrified with tears I remember all the things I’ve prayed for. Then it dawned on me, did I pray for this exact moment?

After graduating during the pandemic virtually, I published “Manipulated” and realized I was more proud doing this than I spent all those years at school. So I quit and decided I’m now on a journey to become a full time artist.

I’ve been praying for this moment and I’ve been learning that sometimes manifestations come as these up and down roller-coasters. A while back I kept having this recurring dream about trying to catch up with all my friends waiting for the ride. It feels like I finally made it to the roller-coaster and this is the part where we’re going up and you don’t know when it’ll drop so you’re scared and want to get off but It’s going, and so are you.

I see all of the amazing, talented, and passionate artists I have the pleasure of sharing stages with make a living with their art and it’s extremely motivating. Maybe I can do it too.

Photography by Thirty1Eighty8

I just released my second poetry visual for my poem “First Date Questions” and started a series on mental health and dating. I’ve worked so hard on this project and it’s beautiful knowing how many people it’s reaching and helping. As a social worker I try to provide an open space for artists to break the stigmas that remain with mental health.

I’m planning to expand on this series so let me know if you’re interested in sitting down and talking about your experiences with mental health.

With this project, I’m starting to see that there’s more to me than being just a poet and money doesn’t define my success. I don’t doubt that the money will come, but for right now I feel pretty successful doing all I am. Scared shitless but successful.

I’m living my dreams right now and it feels surreal. Prayers up for every moment that led me here. Right now more than ever I need support in my art, in any which way. There are plenty of free ways to support and I’d appreciate anything you can do. This is something I’ve been praying for. Getting fired from my job was not part of the plan but…I wanted to quit anyway. Gods plan is greater than anything I could ask for myself. I’m putting it all up to the big man from here on.

You’re gonna see a lot from me real soon. I am so grateful for every thing you have done to support me this far. Thank you for riding with me, it’s only up from here. Keep following my journey, I have no idea what I’m doing so it might get crazy.

Love always,

Your unemployed bestie on a Tuesday